five month update

eek, molly is five months old! she's not a fragile newborn anymore, she's big and sturdy and so much fun. she sleeps through the night now, from about 7pm to 7am, which is amazing and makes our lives so much better. she laughs so much, especially when you pretend to gobble her neck and say "nom nom nom." she enjoys grabbing for her feet and trying to put them in her mouth. she's obsessed with the cats and is content just staring at them while they walk around the living room. (they are not so enamored with her, unfortunately.)

she could not be a better baby and i couldn't possibly love her any more. nevertheless, this new life is very different from my old life and adjusting has been a little hard. i went to visit my old office yesterday, and i felt sad when i left. i don't miss the work, but i miss the people. i miss having a commute (never thought i'd say that) and a lunch break--so much time to myself to read books and listen to music and walk around and shop and do whatever i felt like doing. my identity now is 100% molly's mommy and i'm not entirely comfortable with that. it doesn't help that i've completely ceased trying to make "mom friends." i never felt a connection with the women i was meeting, so i finally just said "fuck it. i have enough friends." of course none of them have babies. i should probably keep trying.

but on the bright side, we made the cutest baby in the world. it's hard to focus on the bad when there's so much good.