hello anxiety

oh man, i am scared scared scared! maybe buying an apartment is a bad idea. i'm lost in a sea of terms i do not understand, like "offering plan" and "due diligence." i just hired a home inspector that i found on the internet. is that bad?

all i want is to move out of my current shitty apartment and buy all new furniture and live happily ever after. why is that so complicated? i just want to relax in my jacuzzi tub; cook loaves of zucchini bread in my spacious kitchen and store them in my regular-sized freezer; lounge in a chair in my damn sitting room with red walls and those shelves from restoration hardware i've been eyeing. let's go!

i am simply not a patient person. i want want want everyting RIGHT AWAY and it's so hard to calm down, appreciate the moment, and just wait. so hard.

help me.

hi

it's yom kippur and my grandma would plotz if she knew i was at work, but seeing as i'm taking of all next week for my anniversary trip to argentina, i need to be here, at work, pretending to do stuff.

so far today i have purchased a pair of fall boots and called my management company to request a rent reduction for the four days the maintenance workers took over my apartment last week. i figured any money taken off the rent would offset the price of the boots. the boots are nice, look:



i plan to be very adulty in my grown up boots this fall.

my husband is cute. i confessed to him my boots purchase and he didn't care, even though we're supposedly saving for an apartment or something. he understands the difficulty of finding the perfect pair of boots and he supports me in my quest to obtain them. i'm so lucky. we're almost married for a whole year!