i would be afraid of me too.

hate hate hate. i have so much hatred in my cold little heart. walking on the street today, a man approached me to see if i wanted to buy some of his candy. i didn't. he turned and walked alongside me, the persistent little guy. he was being jovial, but he was annoying me. my reaction?

"are you kidding me? GET AWAY FROM ME RIGHT NOW."

then i crossed the street to avoid meeting the gaze of any person who witnessed this embarrassing overreaction.

then later i'm back at work, internet stalking as usual. and i find the website of a girl i know, a girl i do not like. why don't i like her? who the hell knows. but the mere thought of her sends me into a blind rage. of course i read every entry and sit around thinking about how annoying she is and how i wish she would move far away so i never have to hear about her again, but of course that's never going to happen and every once in a while someone is going to mention her name and just like that i will be angry and my day will be ruined, that strong is my irrational hatred for this girl. and i know i shouldn't feel this way, but i just do.

i guess i'm just in a mood. granted, i've been in a mood for three days, and no it's not hormones.